Forty.

“Where’s Rose?” I said waking up and finding just Liam sitting in the living room.

“She is with Kris.” He said. I just gave him a look. Isn’t he in Sweden? I mean, I know he is in Sweden.

“They got back yesterday.”

“Nuh huh.” I said.

“Yeah, Grace. Didn’t Sidney say anything?”

“I haven’t talked to him since we went to the doctors.” I said and Liam just looked at me.

“That was four days ago.”

“I know.” I simply said and then went into my bedroom. I haven’t talked to Sidney and he hasn’t even tried to talk to me. Well that was entirely true, he called once that night and I ignored the call. Since then there was nothing. I didn’t know what to do. I liked Sidney. I liked Sidney and it was scary. It was scary because he leaves all the time. It is scary because I don’t want to put him through my stress. I’m scared but I’m also scared of not being with him.

Meet me at the coffee shop?

Open your door

I went and opened my door and there he was. Sidney was standing there with a coffee in hand.

“I come bearing a peace offering.” He said.

“You don’t need a peace offering.” I said and sat on the couch. No one was in the apartment but me. I was not sure where this conversation was going to go.

“I don’t really get what happened. Are we okay?”

“Yeah.” I said and he just looked at me.

“I’m glad, but that just makes me more confused.”

“Something happened when you were gone.”

“I figured as much. With Liam?”

“I mean Liam was there but not the way you think.”

“I’m so confused.”

“I thought it was back.” Was all I said. As soon as I said it, his face just dropped.

“Its not.” I said.

“Why didn’t you tell me? Don’t you think I deserve to know?! You’re the girl I love and this huge thing happened and you don’t tell me. Not only do you not tell me, you stop talking to me for days.”

“I’m glad you still love me.”

“That was never in doubt. Don’t change the subject.”

“I’m not. I was worried we were done.”

“Is that what you want?”

“Of course not. I want to be with you. I really want to be with you, I just got scared.”

“I could have helped.”

“I wanted to tell you. I wanted to curl up into a ball and lay in bed with you and never go out, but you were in Sweden.”

“But you still could have told me.”

“I know, but it wouldn’t have helped in any way.”

“Grace, look at me.” He said and I looked up.

“Grace. I like you. I don’t just like you, I love you. You are the girl of my dreams and if something is wrong in your life, something is wrong in my life. Don’t push me away. Don’t be scared to love me. Don’t be scared of cancer, or love, or anything. We can handle whatever, because I love you and I know you love me.”

“I do love you.”I said and kissed him.